He loves me...He loves me not...

Okay I KNOW my husband loves me! I just do. BUT I feel like he doesn't ever show me he does. He says "I love you" every day before he goes to work, when we hang up on the phone, or when I rub his shoulders ;) But sometimes I just don't feel it. He is a BUSY man!! He works about 60 hours a week so that I can stay home with the boys and he never complains. He loves his job so much, but there have got to be days he doesn't want to go-but he has NEVER said this to me. He has been a police officer for 7 years and I believe he is MADE for this job. It is funny because those that know him from high school/college can't imagine him being a policeman, but he is so good at it-Really!! Last week he got the ribbon of valor from our county and he is up for a major state award (can't remember what-I know, bad wife...) , but still some days he must want to stay home and in bed, but every day he gets up without complaint and goes to work with a smile on his face. That is GREAT to see as a wife, that your husband is so happy. But I feel like I take a back seat to his job and our kids. Horrible I know, and my head says I am first in his life (after God, of course) but my heart isn't so sure.

This all started when I saw a high school friend of mine post that his wife is his Hero. Seriously how sweet is that!?!? He is an amazing guy and was such a good friend in high school, he has been blessed with a gorgeous wife and beautiful son (YAY Jeremy!!!) I know if Stephan had a facebook account his status would never be something as sweet as that. "I punched a guy in the face today" would be his status. And that's okay-I really am so proud of him, he may be small but he has got some MAJOR fight in him :)

I knew he was not a romantic type when we got married, and that was okay. (Well one time he bought sweet note cards and every time I went out to my car-after work, after class, in the morning-I found these sweet words and my heart melted, but that was like 11 years ago...) Just sometimes being home with two little boys and crusty food and snot on my shirt makes me feel like less of a wife and more like a burp cloth :)

I am not complaining AT ALL-I just wonder if more husbands are like mine. Will do everything in his power to make his family secure and provided for, but can't write a love poem to save his life....


And isn't he just TOO cute!?!?

MORE doctors-Ugh!!!

We switched insurance companies this year-not really happy about it, but what are you going to do?? Gwinnett county made a decision to switch insurance providers so here we go, trying to get all of Trey's medical stuff covered under the new insurance company.
So we went yesterday for a "well-check" to get Trey's new pediatrician in-tune with him while he is healthy :) He also had to get one shot that they were out of at his 12-month shot appointment. Well I sit there and go through EVERYTHING Trey has been through in the past 12 months-that was a bit emotionally draining, I never would have thought....
The ped. is requesting Trey see an audiologist for a hearing test and follow-up with a speech therapist. He feels Trey is pretty far behind speech-wise and doesn't want him to get much farther. So YAY another specialist-NOT!!! He also had blood drawn to check for anemia (normal test at this age), allergies (he has abnormal amounts of blood in his stool-allergies *may* be the cause), and to check his thyroid (this has been recommended by everyone that meets my little chunky monkey ;) so as we were getting his blood drawn the first nurse missed and rolled his vein. He was so upset, but the HUGE guy who took over was so gentle and sweet and got it on the first time-very quickly ;)

I should have the results soon, but I think there is nothing wrong with him and they are doing these tests to figure out the big picture. His new ped. asked why/how Trey had hydrocephalus. I really have no answer for him-he is hoping to run some tests and follow Trey, to find out if there is any underlying causes/issues. I LOVE that! I LOVE that he WANTS to know what is going on, and that there are so many little things, he wants a thorough diagnosis. But I am just sick of doctors-as I am sure my little man is also :)
All of the speed crawling and constant moving Trey has been doing has resulted in a weight loss of one pound in 3 weeks-When he starts walking/running he will shrink in no time :)

Ryne is 5-need I say more?? He is defiant, doesn't listen, full of energy, and CONSTANTLY talks!! BUT he is amazing, extremely intelligent, and motivated!! He starts t-ball in Feb.-Thank God!!! He HAS to be in sports or he will blow-up from all of his energy ;)

Pictures!!!! Fall, Trey's b-day, Christmas...

I FINALLY got some pictures posted-YAY!!!!

New year, maybe I can keep up with this...

I am a TERRIBLE blogger!! I was totally hoping I could do a one-a-day post, then I went to once-a-week, now it is once every 5 months-oops!!



Update:

Not much going on-which is why I probably don't blog often :)

Trey is sleeping through the night!! WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!! He caught RSV in December and became very sick. Within 2.5 weeks-completely fine, it was amazing how fast he got better but we are so thankful. It was really scary for awhile-he even lost consciousness due to a bronchial spasm-very scary to see your baby flop over in the kitchen and be completely out of it. He was put on breathing treatments every 2-3 hours and did amazing!! So after he recovered from the RSV we all decided we need sleep in this house. I did the one thing I said I would never do and let Trey Cry it out-it was HORRIBLE!! First night screams for 70 min., 75 min. the second, the third night 60 min.-then remarkably the fourth night no crying, no fighting-nothing. He played and laughed himself to sleep! I was amazed and finally got a true night's sleep, and we haven't looked back (we had to do this for naps to, and it worked very well, rather quickly.) He now sleep 11-13 hours a night and sleeps 4-6 hours during the day. Things are very different around here since I can see and think straight;)
Trey is still in physical therapy, and just started occupational therapy-he can now stand for 10-20 seconds on his own, will walk if you hold his hand, is completely on table foods and except for his nighttime bottles is taking sippy cups, he laughs constantly, doesn't talk or babble yet-but that will come. He is 29 lbs and 34 inches (I'd have to get his baby book for exact amounts :) so he is a big guy-but totally cute!! I have pictures from his first birthday (although his party was cancelled due to the RSV) and I will post pictures soon-I promise ;)

Ryne is just amazing!! A week before Christmas he was running and fell onto the foot board of my bed and had to get 5 stitches under his eye. He has an AMAZING pain tolerance and didn't cry at all, during the stitches, while it was healing, or removal of the stitches. My brother and Stephan said "now he is a real boy!" He is a total cutie-pie ;) Ryne has also moved through master white belt in karate and is testing tomorrow for yellow belt-he is so excited!!
T-ball starts in Feb. and it is pretty hard core this year, no more playing without keeping score-they go all out now. So we'll see if he loves it as much :) He is done with Soccer season and was SO GOOD, but he didn't like it that much so we will see with that one. He is a natural at it, but we won't push him.
Stephan is now in the Crime Suppression Unit at work and really loves it! He is no longer on road patrol but goes out looking for drug dealers, serving search warrants, and other stuff that I really don't want to hear about sometimes :) I swear does he not know how much a cops wife worries!! He is doing a 3 mile torch run to honor the Special Olympics in May, so he is training for that-he is so cute I cant stand it!!
Me-just hanging out being a mom :) I am doing the best I can, and so far I think I am doing pretty good!! Both the boys are extremely happy and healthy (for the most part) Stephan is happy-so I am happy!! I have started coupon clipping and am saving as much as I am spending-Last grocery bill was $64 and I saved $62.86. Our pantry has never been fuller, but our checking account is not suffering-it is awesome! I feel like I am contributing financially to our household, and it feels pretty good!! I am the room mom for Ryne's pre-K class, and getting involved in a local MOPS group to get Trey more involved with other kids, but with the sports, Stephan working 2pm-2am, Ryne's school, Trey's doctors appointments, and Trey's therapy my schedule is pretty full-but there is always room for more ;)
That is all for now-Trey just woke up from his nap, I'll try and post pictures soon!!